Month: November 2020

An Undying Love

Lonely days spent wondering what my future life held,

I was comfortable with most aspects of my life – yet my darling you left a void.  Living alone this last year, alone, grieving for my long time love and partner – finding it hard to come to terms with heartbreak and loneliness, day to day feelings, so entrenched in these days and months since your sudden death.

Never ever giving any thought about moving on – how could I ever do this to my first and only true love, my true soul mate.  I still feel your presence in every room – a soft light touch seems to brush my neck letting me know you are still with me.

These long days and months of heartache slowly passing by – a long time before I had the courage to remove the pillowcase that last caressed your head and your beautiful red hair – for, when I laid next to it you were still with me my darling – now it is laid away with your favourite clothes which still hold memories of our precious time together.

Friends rallied round during my darkest days – with love that only true friends give.  As those dark days’ lessened, our true friends are still with me – friends seeing how  my grief was consuming me – thinking it was time for me to move on – yet, really my love they did not understand my grief – my love had been torn from the sinew of my inner being.

Knowing you would want this – I will try to move forward my darling – slowly I will my love – minute by minute – hour by hour – day by day – thinking of you – knowing that you would want me to embrace all love – yet my darling I know that no one will ever replace you in my heart – my life will go on – never forgetting you my darling – my best friend – my only true love – my undying love for you – my soul mate.

© Carol Robson